Why

Sometimes like today I am asking why. Why Do I have to be the one dealing with this. Why do I have to self harm. Today I feel like it real badly but I am not going to. I also feel great today, maybe because it is friday and I am looking forward to the weekend. Or maybe My prayers are being answered, I just don't feel down today. Today I have made a saftey plan, and I am going to stick with it no matter how hard it is.